here i m taking a short respite from the sucky studying.

ya it sux.

sometimes it is not that i m not willing to burn my nights n chiong... it is just that i have run out of nights to burn.

it will be over soon.

when was the last time i said anything here? i dunno.

i m a luan n last min person.

what happened today??

i got 3/20 for phy quiz.

a very rude mark.

but i shall rain unfrazzeled.

cause i noe my style.

i always crash out phy in the last min.

last yr with malar too.

time. oh i hear the seconds tick by.

all i want is to get through n be done with, this eoy.

i m proud n ashamed at myself, regret and trepidation tirring within me again.

it is yet another of those blasted exams.

i am thinking of after exams...

where stuff will happen

and time is in excess.

then i will do futher thinking and make more stuff HAPPEN.

i dunno, i just had a thought... which was to try to get english top at eoy.

that would mean much to me.

a completed passage for edification.

cause i noe that i m never going to extremely ace maths, or chem. and phy n bio was a little disheartening. and humanities take talent. cl... u think leh...

so there is only one option.

even if it costs me. i will try to get our first A1.


i've been reading... what makes a person good at something?

well, it is inherent talent and cultivation.

to start with, some of our neurons for different poweress are connected better than those for the other aspects. that is inherent talent.

but in the environment we live in, we get influenced, and the more we do something, the better our neurons will connect. so we get better at things. yes, we can make a consencious effort to become more "talented".

how do we do that?

well, simply open the eyes bigger and be more sensitive to the subject matter. expect highly of yourself too. keep pushing up expectations. achievements will become out dated one day mah. be involved in it.

i mean, all in all, after all that we have tried our best to do, we will still b better in some aspects.

these would be our strongest attributes, although we have just slought to make our selves more well-rounded and appreciative towards different disciplines.

i leave a indian quote;" man's various aspects can be said to be like the different rooms within a house. if we do not constantly visit any one room, even if it is just to keep it aired, then we cannot be said to be a complete person."

that means, as humans of high cognitive ability, we have immense potential for all roundedness. (even though as naturally granted, some aspects will be more "visited" than others.)

wow. then i spent some time also, finding out about human artistic capability.

apparently, no other animal is capable of this.

then what makes art? how do we appreciate art?
hai, i no time to find out. next time bah.



humm... i like language. (yes, chinese as well...)

and i'll like more to ace the language. wish me luck.

excuses!

they cause the downfall of many this.

it is all too convenient to cook up excuses!

saying... oh it is because of... wad... i was not placed into a better predicament...

utter denial! what, are we humans to be subjected to such weak power over ourselves?

do we not have just the cognitive ability to seek betterment?

or the excuses really true...?

a mixture?

probably.

maybe we should just value ourselves more and not take things for granted.

GIVE ME THE WILLPOWER!

it would be over soon.

which means that... we shall rejoice in due time

or put it harshly, there is time no enough to study if we r not careful.


GET CRACKING

started the day late. 2 hrs detention. recieved the 'no big deal' form.

but that cant ruin my day.

we all got a little artistic. i was writing calligraphy with yuquan's korean mao bi.

i take to it naturally. (it's my handwriting)

aniket thaught us how to write out names in hindi. they all look the same to me: just think of 3456... with a bar connecting them...lol

quite a good time slaking n chatting... even during fredrick's lesson.

so it was pe. damm good game. dunno who won lah, everyone had his own opinion, but it really did not matter.

recess! play milo domino. i guess everyone needed the nutrients in the chocolate drink. 9 milo n one deanne's greentea.

(a bit high lah)

then a whole slacky 1 hr free period. wrote the hiragana chart. took a photo of it. quite artistic.

ode to disneyland!

aiyah, then lots of stuff lah... u noe.. like..

then the amaths n the phy then the chem practical-

THE GREAT SPA EXPERIMENT

SCENE 1:
enter rm lim and class.

got briefed on the subject matter.

lynn n noel not here, so yewheng n xuanhong pair up, n i went with yu quan, together in the same bench as ray n paul.

SCENE2:
collected our apparatus.

"40cm3 or 80 cm3 ar?"

"the more the better lah..."

"eh, where is our electronic balance??"

"someone took it, nvm, go grab other ppl one."

"ok... conical flasks, check. balance, check. marble chips 5g, check."

"oh, we nid the cotton!"

"right lets start..."

"lets add the marble chips to the acid... no wait, they stick to the bottom of the flask."

"then lets add the acid to the marble chips!"

"ok..."

"wait!!! havent tare!"

"oh... weight of conical flask... hey, both have stuff in them."

"take another one from the back bah..."

"(heng got same size one)"

"ok! tare..."

"right, i m adding the acid ar... time, time."

ray walks over, '' let me help u guys... my watch better to see."

"yea, quite true."

" ok, i pouring the acid ar. ready the cotton. here goes."

oops, acid is spilt..

"ah shit!"

"shit!"

"nvm nvm... time, time. wad is the reading ar? issit 0 to start with or not? 43.7? why?..."

"humm, must stirr."

"shit, reaction too fast"

"ah! do again!"

"hey why dont u guys do the powdered one instead, then later we copy ans." said paul.

"careful, dun spill..."

"ok..."

"tare ah, tare."

pours the powder into flask.

"shit, spill a bit."

"aiyah, jerry come, i help u" offered joelynn.

"man man lai ar..."

"ok, done!"

"collect more acid."

there is no more acid from the big bottles, only labled P.

"is this the acid...?"

tosses a marble chip into the acid. it sizzles.

"ok, this is the acid."

"right. lets add the powder into the acid"

ray,"let me do it"

"ok better u do lah, u more steady..."

pours the powder into the flask happily.

"oh shit!"

half of the powder falls onto the electronic balance

"oh no"

"hey! time, time!"

"someone, get the sponge! the sponge!"

"wad is the reading? hey, yq! ur hand is on the balance n it says err!"

"sweep up the powder!"

"shit! wad is the time?!"

moy walks past," haiyoh, like this uall better redo!"

"wad! we r redoin it now!!"

***

i'll like to think of us being scientist when we grow up.

trust me, it was a coordinated effort.

well, it seemes that i m not the only one who goes home n sleeps 3 hours.

go home sure buay tahan, then tell myself wan to sleep 1/2 hr. dun set alarm clock sure end up snoozing till 6, 7 plus....
thats y i have to make up for lost time by sleeping late, n the whole thing just starts again. so depressing, since young leh...

nvm.

we got back all our test papers already.

comment: the only subjects i have tuition are the mathes, n the only 2 subjects i failed are a n emaths.

the rest were ok i guess.

first time humanities get a A. n thr chemistry too, A.

(when it is a A2, ppl say its a A, then when it is a A1, ppl insist on stressing upon the O-N-E.)

the consolation for amaths is that even i got 3 marks higher than noel. he was utterly suaned, for the carelessness of him.

emaths i dident make it by 3 marks...

oh, ya, cl got a A1 overall.

suprising, the tides r turning.

maths... it was a case of sheer mismanagement. i luan luan lai de...

so, today is weds.

n time seemed to be more graceful in passing less fast than expected.

mon was ok, ate lunch at budget with deanne, joelynn , jiahui n noel. never ever eat mee rubus n drink coffee together. it rendered me motionless on my bed farting for the next few hours, applying the yu yee oil...

then i dunno wad happened, but time elapsed again.

then tuesday's lunchmenu was ya fan with yuquan n noel at 201.
"bu yao pi, bu yao gu... ah then wo jing chang lai de..."
after that went home to not chiong the reading portfolio- sleep first.
then dinner n slack, started producing chunks of written matter from 9 non stop do till 2:30.

then today... nothing very intresting, n sry deanne, cause we do not have qian li yan. there is just something wrong with the round tables... not big enough. u think wad, king author issit! no lah, just kidding. but we felt ps-ed. nvm, the lessons were long today. n we had back our term 3 sitting arr. quite a nice one, personally. ascessible n unblocked...

i walked to esso with ray n shangzhi just now, n waited for the bus on the overhead bridge. excellent view. nice breeze.

wads on my head now...

diplomacy et deterrance. friendships? yea.

weather or not the tides r turning, they sure bring about a force upon us, n shape us they do.

not to worry, the road is still long.

so, we did not make it into the top 10 for nemation.

but really, i do not regret one bit at all.

we have done our best, and have had fun.

it was a long suffering process.

everyday started early n ended late. i never saw the sun set.

there was tension. throughout there were ppl who were there to put you down. there was competition, there were ppl who were just there to intimidate you.

so detached we were that when we saw mr kang, we were so happy. that finally, someone who will not turn his back on us, has come to give us a chan fu. thank you, mr kang.

interviews? lots of them.

publicity? prehaps for the obxoxious one who laughed so loud n breathed to loudly. glad they made it in, other wise an ambulance would have made a trip. lol. btw, i was refering to a chij team.

well, it was fun. really. learnt alot. drew alot.

the experience really made me learn alot...

i discovered that we were true to ourselves, and that we made quite a good team.

i actually thought we would cry when we dident make it into the top ten. but we dident. i guess thats because we have really lived our passage to our best, taking in n learning to the fullest. thus nomatter wad outcome, we could face it.

well, i guess we were relived when the results were out. as in, really relived of our hols being burnt. i took a photo of the ppl who mingled at the reception, and told ourselves, that is no longer our problem.

gearing up for term 4 now... how fast time elapses...
then again, lu hen chang. i m grateful for the many opportunities to scale to greatness n make amends for the imperfections in life.

no more wine too i guess. finished the last of the schonbrunn palace wine from vienna. cant hold drinks. tried to walk straight, but just could not. knocked out onto the sofa.

went to cut hair dis morn. bought hair wax. i realised my hair did not rock consistantly, n i wanted to achieve a day after shampoo effect. refurbished my pencilcase, as typical of a day before sch reopens.

someone remind me that after all this apperent frenzy that i must get a facebook account n create lists for this blog.


so theres to the sept hols dis yr.

in any case,

thank you

bk

yuquan

n

noel

for making the passage worth the while.


the road is still long.

from monday till sat we at the nanyang poly doing nemation... very xin ku... but fun n meaningful.

next time then say more bah... if i wanted to list down everything on my mind now, it would probably take till daylight.

just how much we have been through..

thank you for the chance.

nemation top 20!

so happy... do i nid to say anything else...

words cant describe...


jiayous

it will be worth the while